moving

sitting in my bedroom for the last time typing this. its a really weird feeling because this is the place where i got into hololive, persona and got back into yakuza so i have some special connection to this place, but i wont lie and say that i didn't miss my last two apartments when i was living here. im going to be straight up, this has been the worst place i have ever lived. the management sucks, the room is depressing and i can't wait to get out of here in a few hours so i can escape this place. im pretty excited about the new place, im gonna spend time to make it my own personal place which i can't wait to do :). i think my mental is going to be a bit better too, being in a new place and all. would feel nice to not have to worry about anything too crazy going forward when i can just sit on my new couch and turn my brain off after getting home from work. it's a bit further out than i want it to be but the rent is cheaper by a few hundred bucks so i'll take it. the room seems to be around the same space as my current one so im SUPER excited. im gonna get a new desk and futon so im pretty stoked. 

its so weird to leave a place behind, it stings almost. i can't wait for the future where i'd have my own personal bubble but for right now, my own personal room seems to be the perfect move because, blegh, personal bathrooms! i can't wait, it seems reasonably sized compared to my current one because it's really wide and that leaks into the actual space of the room, which i always hated. im very nervous, to be honest but i think once everything is set up tonight, it'll be worth every second. im both excited and terrified as a result, i threw away some stuff too i figured i wouldn't need which was a lot of old kpop stuff. lol. i cant wait for what the new place brings, and what i can start collecting and all that. i feel like buying movies again, which is nice. im gonna feel more need to use my TV since ill have a couch, something to turn on and play when im bored. i am beyond excited about the couch, it's unreal. im going to try and start collecting ps4 games too since a lot of the ones i want are cheap and a refurbished ps4 pro is around 200 dollars, which, with how things are going nowadays, seems worth it. lol. also going from 500 gigs to 1tb would seem worth it. im also happy to get my own desk, ive been having to use a partial drawer as one since i moved in and i hate it, its too short and having to slouch to use my laptop sucks. this (hopefully) means more posts as it wont be a nightmare to type and have somewhere to sit and write. im also getting a new chair. the one im using right now is absolutely awful. i got it from goodwill for about 10 bucks and it was doing pretty good at first, but after a year and a half from use, its about time to wrap it up on this thing. the new one im looking at looks better and would probably suit me better than the one i currently have does. 

i hope this new place serves me well, or at least as well as i want it to. im kinda scared but i was scared when i moved into this place and i was scared when i moved into the place before that one so this feeling i'll get over now. i guess the worst part of it all is the moving part, which is gonna be time-consuming but when everything gets put in place it should be okay. can't wait to put up posters and set the room up. i don't have much more to say other than im worried about today and hope its over soon. once today is over, it'll be smooth sailing from there. the only thing left to do is to... do it. that's the part im worried about the most. i have so many stupid worries about this place but it'll be okay once its over. i seriously can't wait for the new futon, chair, and desk. it'll be worth it.

hope everyone has a good day, i'll try to.