may 3rd, 2026

a lot to talk about but it's all positive :D !!! very happy about that. in the midst of irl stuff being a nuisance (never ending it seems...) ive had some awesome stuff happen! yay! for starters: hololive! ive been getting more and more invested in hololive as time goes on and it's really cool. i am a big fan of the EN branch and a bigger fan of both advent and justice, both have my EN oshis. advent is really cool, i love fuwamoco and shiori is also cool, im very happy i follow them because i haven't had a negative moment with them. i have a LOT to say about justice tho, my goodness. one of my favorite units possibly ever. gigi!! gigi is awesome, i love her stories and how she acts, it's very very relatable and it makes me like her a lot. i don't really like talking about my personality because it's not something i particularly think about deeply but it also comes off like "guys!! look at me!! im different!" which is something i despise, but watching gigi and seeing bits of myself in her is super cool and it makes me feel better about myself and who i am, which i guess is the best thing your oshi can make you do. her views on art being super important and helpful during your bad times is also super super important to me because i feel the same exact way about art... i want to stop typing so i can go watch gigi clips now, but i wont because i love writing this blog. anyways, her views on a lot of the stuff i like is similar to mine so it's fun watching her, and she's really funny! i love her more absurd sense of humor and her "i'll do whatever i want" attitude because, as i said, something i really really relate too, and her solo song, I'll Still Be Here is amazing and very touching, it makes me very emotional. i recently learned that the song what the song was about thru clips and it makes it a lot more touching song, im listening to it rn and it's kinda hard to not start tearing up TT. i love gigi so much :( one of my favorite creators and vtubers, i hope to stay with her until the end of time, proud grem front and back. cecilia is also super awesome and i love her dynamic with gigi, it's very fun to watch them interact with eachother because of how good they're able to get along, it's like they were bounded to end up by eachother's side at some point in life, its's honestly super cool. their dynamic is so sweet and amazing. also the name autofister is really funny. raora is super sick too, i love her voice so much (tbqh all of justice have amazing voices). i really love her italian accent, it's super cute and warms my heart everytime i listen to it. erb is also super cool too! i'm not that familiar with her if im going to be real but i have very much enjoyed everything of her ive encountered. justice is awesome, their music is super good too, i can listen to Above Below on repeat on hours and still have fun as i did for the first time. i wish there was more justice merch (that's affordable at least TT) but i'm super happy there's any at all. i mostly talked about gigi but i can go on and on about how much i love her, so that's nothing new. i even have a membership on youtube... that's some real deal stuff right there. i haven't been disappointed by what i've gotten tho, so that's awesome. thinking about her makes me happy lollll. interesting. that's enough holo talk tho... let's move on

i got a switch! i was seeing a lot of people on twitter play tomodachi life and got intrigued as i used to play the first one on the 3DS very heavily and it was so, so worth it. i've been having a really fun time. my island is super cool because everyone so far is either my friends or vtubers so watching them all interact with eachother is super funny and cool. my island is super sick and i cant wait to add more people as time goes on, i have a lot of idea: matt and jay from nirvanna the band, the rest of my hololive oshis (only have 4, but want to add more) and a few more rappers. the game is super sick so far though and i'm really glad and happy i was able to get my hands on it, it's sitting next to me right now as i type this! i got the iconic red and blue switches though but since this console is nearly 10 years old and its a first batch, there's drift unfortunately, though the controller i got works perfectly fine and i like using it more as the only game i actually used the joycons for was tomodachi life. it's more precise too, especially on Super Mario Odyssey and Super Mario 64 (both INCREDIBLE games, im almost finished with Odyssey and it's a near perfect game). i love this console a lot, so i'm super happy i was able to get it. very fun to play after a long stressful day at work or whenever i'm really bored. fun console. i have about a handful of games for it and they're all first party (i prefer to play 3rd party games on either my ps4 or laptop) so it's good. i'm glad i decided to treat myself to a switch because this is really fun, i finally feel like im doing something worthy of my time instead of just mindlessly procrastinate about doing things, because when i'm more i can just get up and do something else. really awesome stuff. i really love playing sm64 again as it's been a long, long time since i've done so. it should be obvious how i got my games, in that case i'll say: i need to get more n64 games on it. hmmm... what else?

i saw lucy bedroque! i bought tickets back around the same time the announcement came out and me and my friend were super super lucky as the tickets sold out like immediately. the concert was alright. the merch line was so so long though, lasted about 3-4 hours and throughout the entire show, so im glad i was at the end and was able to get 2 tees and a CD. the shirts are awesome, i got a black tour tee and the anime backstage hologram shirt, both in L and XL respectively. the shirts are large, the L shirt fits me perfectly and XL is loose on me (for reference, i'm 5,9 and wear XL normally). the show itself was pretty good, i know i said it was alright. kuru was amazing, every song was hype and had an element to move to and it was super sick to experience him live as this was my first ever exposure to him, imo, the best set of the night as it's turned me into a big kuru fanboy now, love his music to bits and pieces. also to hear a loona reference live in concert feels like a full circle moment considering i started this blog as a dweeb for this type of stuff. i wasn't too crazy about the DJ set 9lives did, though i did like a lot of the songs they played, especially the Jane Remover song, that was fire. not a big fan of them opening a pit after what feels like every single song, other than that it was rather fine, least favorite set of the night. lucy bedroque's set was also okay, i'm not sure if it was me or i'm not as tapped into lucy's discography like that anymore but nothing was clicking with me outside of unmusique which is a bummer because a lot of it sounds rly good, but i wasn't aware of what they were so i have no strong opinions about it. i think the music wasn't hitting as much, at least physically, it just sounded like i was listening to it and not being shaken or moved by it (is that the right phrasing?), which was fine. he was a great performer nonetheless, gave it his all it felt but unfortunately it just wasn't hitting for me, which is unfortunate, that's still the goat tho, all of them are. im SUPER happy with the merch tho, looks great and feels amazing to wear. i don't have time to take pictures but i will either tomorrow or later tonight, depends on how work goes.

that's all i have to say for now!! super cool stuff happening and i hope it continues! hope everyone has a great day and love for everyone.

stream writing #1

my brain feels full for some reason, like my head is full of air and there's no intelligent thoughts anywhere. id like to think but each thought i have gets cut off and replace by a void or space that feels hard to fill. why? why is this the case? eh who's to say. the only thing i can do is sit here and accept it. it's rough but alas, so are most things. i wish i could bring myself to do the things in my life i truy wanna do instead of sitting in my bed all day and doing nothing of value, it's been a constant problem for the past couple of months but reccently it's felt very... wrong? i cant properly explain but i think there's a level of guilt and regret in my stomach bubbling for no real reason. i feel very alone and isolated with my thoughts so it feels like i dont have many people i can properly talk about this stuff with without feeling like im a complete burden on them and its a problem. i don't like the idea of a virtual therapist so i don't really wanna deal with that because 1) i feel id get distracted more 2) i wouldn't take it as serious. i've done my fair share of therapy and unfortunately i think doing it irl would be the best course of action because of everything surrounding me and my life. i dont wanna go into details but i feel like im in a really bad spot, the worse ive felt mentally in months, the most physical pain ive felt and ive done nothing to help improve it because i can't find it within myself to care enough to find anything that could possibly help. i want to get better but everything i'm dealing with isn't helping on top of other factors that depress me more than words can say. it all kinda sucks a lot. i don't really care that nobody reads this blog or anything like that because i like writing it and it helps me motivate to do better, so i can have stuff to talk about but i don't really know what to do that's not repetitive or boring, like i read another manga? cool man i did that for 3 posts in a row. i like hololive? i got another handpuppet! cool man, can't wait to read and type that next post. it feels kinda boring and lame that i'm doing all of this, but i don't really know what else to post, i don't really know anything else. every day i have a goal in my mind of what i'm going to do and i never end up doing it and it kinda sucks, this has been happening for the past couple of years and i wish i set myself up for a goal that sounds believable but i don't know how long things are going to be mentally because it all sucks a bunch. i have no motivation to do anything i like unless i force myself to do it and that's one of the worst feelings ever. i like doing stuff and i wanna do it, but i just cant on my own for some reason. i heard somewhere that this is a sign of depression but idk if thats it. it feels too farfetched for it to be something like that, at least conclusively. this type of stuff sucks, a lot. im trying to find ways of dealing with it but mentally i feel so stuck because the progress isn't immediate how i want it to be. i feel so childish and lame as a result. i feel it's my biggest disadvantage, mentally being childish. i don't think im inheritely a rude person but i feel being honest and "saying how it is" does lead to a lot of problems because i don't have a way of talking "normally" or filtered, and i find it really hard to do stuff like this. i always wanted to feel "normal" growing up because of how i am being a problem in my life but i could never adapt and it still kinda bugs me to this day. i wish people would also have some courtesy to understand but that's me getting way too ahead of myself. its hard to explain without getting into specifics but its late and i really don't wanna do that. i feel i could go on this stuff endlessly but i feel i'd repeat myself a bunch. i guess the biggest draw from all of this is that i want it to be 2022 again even though i'm viewing that through huge rose tinted glasses but i mostly just miss being inspired by art that i'm still CURRENTLY inspired by, i just don't stop to think about it. i guess i have to start working on my art again, something i haven't in a while. i miss being inspired by art and to make dumb silly edits myself. very fun thing to do. i don't know what else to really write right now but i felt i've been needing to get that off my chest for a while.

im gonna re-do my blogger profile, it's old and outdated, blegh. see you all on the next post.

april 15th, 2026

been a while since i wrote a post so im going to sit down and finally do it. a lot of irl stuff has happened so i havent found the time or motivation to write a post (which sucks) but if i wrote a post it wouldve sucked a lot, so its good im doing a lot better. i was out earlier and i should've gotten an energy drink lmaooo, craving an alani. ive been drinking them a lot at work recently because they taste really good. i absolutely love the cosmic stardust flavor, it reminds me a lot of a grape sucker and i can probably drink like 2-3 in a row if i wanted to. will i? its not advised but god does it taste good. it's been a while since ive indulged in energy drinks to this extent, at least talking about it. i love most energy drinks (except redbull and celcius lol) so im always happy to try a new one. i dont even drink them for the "energy" aspect, i just really love the taste. my favorite energy drink is probably alani. cherry slush, pink slush, the aforementioned cosmic stardust, blue slush and hawaiian shaved ice are all so so good. i can pick up at any time of the day and down it, beautiful taste. though i should probably watch my sugar intake but eh. i remember what wonhee from illit said one time, it's not a bad meal if you're happy, and i get happy when i drink alani!

i havent been reading much manga as of late, which is lame. i dropped I Want This Love Game To End because i wasn't reading it enough, like it's been almost a month since i read the last volume and had 0 interest in reading more so i just ultimately decided to drop it and pick up another manga. i recently acquired like 75 gigs of manga so im pretty excited to get thru that. it's going to take, so so long, but i feel it'll be slightly worth it. the next manga i wanna read is A Silent Voice as it's piqued my interest for a while now but i haven't actually read it because i know i'll just end up feeling terrible or some stupidly strong emotion which i probably need because those are my favorite type of stories, even thinking about the story is making me feel sad lmao, i can't imagine reading it. i have the hololive holoearth manga in print so i want to read that pretty soon (i thought about starting it after finishing this post actually) so that'll be fun. i didn't even know there was a hololive manga at first but im glad there was because it looks really fun! it stars fubuki and mio, two members of gamers who are my favorite unit and all members are my oshi (korone <3)! so im super excited to read it but theres no new chapters until july because that's when volume 3 comes out but that has miko in it! i love miko. i love her voice, its super cute and i love the duo between her and suisei because they seem very close which is awesome, i love close duos. anyways, back to manga, i wanna start reading One Piece too, though i feel that'll be very daunting because of how long it is, 1170+ chapters! wow! i still haven't even finished Dragon Ball yet lol. there's so much stuff to read lol, i might dedicate tomorrow and thursday to reading manga / watching hololive stuff. 

hololive! lot of stuff has happened in the past week regarding hololive being in my life, to note the previously mentioned holoearth manga and owning it in person, it's super cool! i love flipping thru the pages because the art is high quality so it's really fun. i can't wait to actually read it. what else... hmm??? oh! i finally listened to a full length album by a EN member, Kiara's Vogelfrei album and it's SUPER SUPER GOOD. i love every song on it and i'm currently listening to it right now as i'm typing this! it reminds me a lot of late 2022 and early 2023 kpop so i'm naturally very positive towards it. my favorite songs on it are probably Ego or Manifest, both are fun and cute songs! i still haven't watched a hololive concert which is upsetting me because there's so much i wanna watch a lot of them. i wanna watch a suisei one, a holoen one and fuwamoco's birthday party because it looks amazing! i love fuwamoco so much. theyre super adorable. i think after some thinking im pretty sure advent is my favorite holoEN unit. they're all super fun to watch. i recently started watching shiori and she might be one of my en oshis (as well as gigi, fuwamoco and cecilia). actually fun thing that happened, i was watching shiori play LA Noire and ive been wanting to join her membership for a bit so i bit the bullet and got it and like 30 seconds later i heard "saku welcome" and it completely caught me off guard. i didnt know they acknowledge when people join memberships but im still pretty happy regardless, i was already planning on joining. here's the clip! i'm very happy hololive is in my life, a lot of joy has been sparked as a result and it's incredible. i love it all so so much. i also got a miko hand puppet! look!

i even it next to korone so she has a friend. i love this design a lot. i love their eyes and how their arms are pointing out when theyre not connected and i love how easy it is to use them.

that's really all i have to say for right now, it's getting late and i can't really think of what else i could write here without repeating myself so i'll just cut it short here and say manga and hololive are awesome. very happy theyre both in my life. catch yall on the next post! it wont be 3 weeks from now, promise. it'll also be longer.

march 21st, 2026

one week since the last post but ive been thinking about the blog nonstop and what to write for it. i fouund a CRT sunday! my friend was taking me to work when he spotted it on the side of the road and since the signs said free, we took it. it works amazingly! the colors are great and the picture is amazing. i was fairly surprised as i thought it would be dim and slightly faulted but it was perfect! i remember being scared to carry it up the stairs because i live on the second floor. i was terrified but me and my friend got it up with no problems. ive been using my Dreamcast on it since i've gotten it and it's an absolute dream to have, looks amazing and i want to use it more and more as a result. i plan on getting more games this upcoming week because theres so much cool stuff on the Dreamcast.

the Dreamcast is the coolest console of all time, in my opinion. a great selection of games and some of my favorite tech ever in a console, it was truly ahead of its' time. such a shame it ended up being SEGA's last effort with a game console. we could've had so much more :/. i love this console so much, its a masterpiece. i need to get a few more retro consoles (not really, just a PS3 but that's really it,) because they're really fun to play, i have a PS2 i haven't messed with in years but its one of my favorite things i own and i can't wait to play with it again when i move back in with my parents because it's going to be so much fun. my current set-up right now is a DVD player i found at Goodwill for like 10 bucks (i think i mentioned it on an old blog post, actually) from 2001 that's supposedly high-tech and great quality for its time.. and to no surprise, it holds up surprisingly well. it even came with the remote! its a fun little oddity to have. it looks amazing on my TV (for obvious reasons), so i'm pretty happy with it. the remote even has angle buttons and i love that cause the Beastie Boys DVDs i have take full advantage of stuff like that so it adds to the experience (Three MC and One DJ angle of Mix Master Mike scratching is one of the coolest things you could possibly watch). i can't wait to experience the detour mode of the Awesome... I Shot That! DVD.

i haven't been reading much manga as a result of messing with the CRT i got and the DVD player and part of me is kinda upset by that but the other is kinda happy i haven't been "forcing" myself to read it, the current series i'm reading is called I Don't Want This Love Game To End and the first volume is pretty good. i like a lot of the aspects and it seems like a fairly easy read so maybe at some point this week i actually lock in and finish the manga because i know it can take me like one night to properly finish it. i haven't been too crazy about manga recently, unfortunately. i hope i lock back in again so i can read and read like i always want to because there's so much out there i wanna read and finish (like Dragon Ball, lol). i saw Kaiju No. 8 vol. 15 came out so i'm probably going to pick it up when i get paid this week, on top of the Dreamcast stuff so it's going to be a very fun few days. i really enjoy keeping my manga series up to date, it's fun. the only series i don't have up to date is Gachiakuta but that's because i haven't found motivation for it for some reason even though i absolutely loved the first two chapters. i need to pick up some more Junji Ito, always good to give respects to the mangaka that got you into manga into the first place, my copy of Tomie was actually 5 bucks and it's super cool! it's been a want of mine for YEARS now so to have it for that cheap was absolutely perfect. i need to Rai Rai Rai, i own the volumes but i haven't read any of it yet but i really like the art and the premise so i'll eventually get to it. still waiting for Yotsuba vol. 16.

this one is going to take a chunk of the post because i have a lot to speak about regarding these two topics, k-pop and hololive. i don't know if i can do k-pop anymore, i've had this sentiment for years now but always stuck around for some reason but this time it's not looking too great. the only groups i like aren't very active anymore outside of ILLIT but it's very easy to just focus on them. the more i get into hololive the less i want to interact with anything k-pop related, for some reason. it's hard to properly explain but as i get older, the less k-pop just seems appealing and how its shaped itself has drawn me more and more away, that and i need to get over the fact it's not 2022 anymore. i guess a gleaming example of this is the fact when im out of the house, one of the main things on my mind is wanting to get home asap and watch hololive stuff, which i haven't felt about k-pop in a long, long time. i have like 7 videos i added to my Watch Later on YouTube last night that are all hololive. i have like 13 videos in my Watch Later that's all hololive and i actually intend to watch them instead of putting them off. stuff like that is so nice to have and its rewarding compared to what k-pop has done recently and how much i loved it. did you know Super ILLIT is airing? it was finally brought back after like a year but i can't bring myself to wanna watch an episode because they're SO long. 30-40 minute episodes, i want to be excited about it but i really miss the episodes that were like 15-20 minutes so much. i've noticed a lot of in-house k-pop content has gotten longer and longer and it's driving me away, i had to drop 123 IVE because each episode was getting closer to being an hour long and i just couldn't do it anymore, and i LOVED it! so imagine how i feel about Super ILLIT... it's just becoming more clear to me though that i should probably move on. i still like a lot of the old groups and still listen to their stuff, but the whole idol thing and variety content side i've fallen off of, a lot of it still the same but i think i just grew out of it. it's saddening for me because it used to be my life and i don't regret my fandom in any capacity, but i'm getting older. which is why i watch a bunch of anime women. the irony. i'm not really sure what about hololive appeals to me, i think it's the personalities because i like a lot of them, my oshi is Korone! i love her, she's my favorite thing ever right now, her design is so cute and her personality is amazing to watch on stream because she's really funny most of the time. also her english is suuuuuper cute and i can watch it all day. i multi oshi both Korone and Pekora and it's kinda unfortunate because there's not much content between the both of them as they both stated that they don't talk much outside of work which is kinda sad, but makes sense, they both seem really introverted. i get something out of hololive that i haven't gotten out of k-pop in years, fun. it's so much fun to watch these idols and i feel really happy engaging with their content the way that i do. also the music is amazing, i'm a complete sucker for the j-pop sound so being able to find a idol and j-pop thing i'm super into like this and has great music is just sublime, i feel so rewarded for being a fan and it's just a feeling i won't ever appreciate enough. i even started collecting the card game! i have Okayu, Korone and La+ Darkness but i hope to have a lot of my oshis soon because they're cool to own cards of. one of my favorite parts of them being virtual is that there's also a lot more they can do for content, for example, they have a short form series called Holo no Grafitti and it's so much fun to watch since they're animated, they're able to do a LOT more than live action can and it's fun to watch, i've only seen a handful of episodes but they're absolutely fun to watch and i can't wait to watch all 300+ (TT) episodes at some point. god, i love being into this stuff so much. i wish k-pop was more opening and did stuff like that for variety content, 3-4 minute short episodes of groups doing a bunch of stupid stuff just because it's entertaining and funny. they already kinda do that but i feel doing it in shorter segments would be more fun and a way to get more stuff out properly. anyways i love hololive Gamers, what a great unit. everyone in the unit is entertaining and i love their animal motif a lot. very cute and adorable. that's all i really have to say for now regarding these two topics but it's really interesting how it's turning out. i hope i feel moderately better about k-pop in the future but it's not looking too bright. oh well, more for hololive! yay!

i don't have much more to say at the moment, which is unfortunate because i loved writing this but alas, i have to get ready for work soon so i will be on my way. i love writing for the blog, feels incredibly rewarding every single time that i do it. love it. i need to fix up the theme of the blog so i'll do that shortly after publishing this post. anyways, toodles! hope everyone has a great day.

march 13th, 2026

the future is now... the future is present... no.... the future is... the future! very clearly bored right now, been a somewhat eventful day (not really but it sounds enticing when i say that), i finally finished frieren and its great! i love the story a lot and the dynamic between all the characters is super cool. stark and fern's chemistry is super cute to observe as they play off eachother so well in the chapters. frieren herself is an amazing character and i love how her emotions get softer as the series goes on, what a super fun read. i hope the creators get healthy soon, no rish though, but its a fun manga to read. i heard the anime is amazing so i really wanna check it out, i can see myself being super into it like i was the kaguya-sama anime (good lord, i can make a whole post about that if i wanted to [which i kinda do]). the only thing i have to say though is that the exam arc was really boring that i pratically skipped over it and the current arc right now is pretty meh, not intrigued by it because i dont like the characters a lot. i liked ubel at first but slowly growing to dislike her, i dont like her character or her dialogue, feels very forced for what type of person she is. other than that, i dont have anything else negative to say about the series but i will say i think the slice of life stuff is much more natural and better to read than the action stuff, which for a shonen i understand and like that it's there to break up moods and considering the entire story is a journey, but i feel theres a bit of a slog in the dialogue when it comes to the action stuff. these are very lovable characters and i want to see them succeed, which is why i love the slice of life bits a lot more. the characters are so adorable as a result, frieren is one of my favorite characters, she's very expressive and a bit stubborn which is fun to read in the slice of life stuff. fern is also very adorable too, i love her character too and how she grows up in the story. i love her bangs too, absolute sucker for characters with bangs.

let's see.... what else did i do? well i watched half of the webseries for nirvana the band the show and that was amazing. i have a new fondness and love towards the show because of how raw and authentic it is, the show uses real people, real locations, real everything and its sooo good as a result. copyright doesn't matter! i love it. the viceland show is pretty much the same way and its glorious. i love the show so much. i would speak more on the viceland show but if youre reading this i want you to drop this and immediately find the show and watch it. absolutely mind-blowing shit and it broke my mind. for being so much into jackass, nathan for you, eric andre, arrested development and a lot of shows that are handheld style and very witty and dry, im genuinely surprised that i havent found / watched this earlier. it's a masterpiece of both comedy and visuals and shows how much you're allowed to get away with and it leaves you stumped (it did me at least...). seriously though, drop this and watch the show immediately. you will not regret it. it goes without saying that my interest in this show DOES spawn from the fact there's a new movie (well it came out last month but whatever) that's coming out digitally in a week and a half and to say i'm excited is an understatement. i am beyonf excited, i have heard nothing but praise for the movie and after watching both the webseries and the show... i get it! absolute masterpiece as i've stated and hopefully have implied. god, what a show. im sure ill speak more on this show in later posts but mannnnnnnnn its worth every second. i also started watching the Mega64 versions, i'm only 3 episodes in but it's really fun so far, i love the aesthetic and the idea. the only reason why i started watching is because mega64 is one of my favorite youtube channels and ive been curious for a long time, so finally being able to watch it feels nice, i even bought their patreon to watch it, yay! having money is awesome! on the real though, i'm very glad about starting it, i know it gets better as time goes on and i cant wait to get there. hm..

what else? i just realized that this is all one huge block of text lol, im going to space it out from now on to seperate each topic so it doesn't feel like a burden to read. i only blog for myself though, i don't expect anyone ever to read any of these, but it's nice to just write and write about stuff going on. i'd have a digital diary but i don't like using those and google docs runs terribly, but i love how easy and fun blogger is to use, and i can also write non blog posts (research posts possibly) if i wanted to, which i will for sure do on here. i miss the blogs, i miss being under ruby, i miss being creative, i miss being obsessively into things, i'm so glad to be under this name. i love ruby. i love my friends too. i feel more human that i've ever felt in a long time and it's amazing. what was i talking about? no clue.

i also played sonic 2 earlier! i haven't played in years so it was fun to play a bit. i got around 8 zones in and i have to say.... metropolis is awful. terrible, terrible zone. ive been watching a lot of sonic videos again cause i went on a sprawl last week and started watching a bunch of videos from cybershell from sonic and i was like "huh i should play the game again," and im glad i did cause sonic is cool as hell. he's blue, fast and has a cool additude, what's not to love?

uh, uh.... hm. hololive. nah, im playing. i should've said it like this: hololive! i love hololive, i got into it at some point last month and it was very much worth it, i feel i found it at the right time. im fairly new to it so i don't know that much history / info but im having a blast. my top 4 at the moment is: pekora, korone, vivi and fuwamoco. they're all adorable! pekora and korone are my oshis (i was surprised they used that term) because they're both very funny and unique. this video and this one are reasons why they're my oshis. i really love the both of them to bits, and i love their music too. i think korone is adorable too, her voice and her whole dog shtick resonates well with me and she's also genuinely fun to watch as a result. i also love how ruthless and out there pekora is, feels very comforting and kinda relatable as i feel me and her share a lot of the same traits. i even have a pekora hand plush! (i also have one of sora one too)

pekovivi is also my favorite duo, there's a lot of cute moments between the two and you can clearly tell pekora cares about vivi which is just adorable to watch. i feel a lot of there best moments are from their minecraft streams because... wow. so much good stuff there. even their cover is so cute! i listen to it a lot. korone also has a cover for earthbound's pollyanna and... its SOOOO GOOD. its very touching, i remember wanting to cry after i heard it for the first time. i love a lot of hololive's og music because they're very much j-pop and i love that sound, but it's nice to finally be into j-pop to some extent. i could never get into j-pop idols like i wanted to because they couldn't click for me for some reason but hololive scratches the exact itch i want from idols so... it's better than nothing. nah, i kid, i love these characters a bunch. my favorite unit is hololive gamers! obviously since one of my oshis is korone. i hope to have a lot more merch before the year ends, i wanna show my love and support for my favs to the fullest extent. my goal is to have a majority of the handplushes to the characters i like. i hope theres a fuwamoco one because i know theres ones for suisei, korone, fubuki and the rest of hololive gamers that i really want (to my knowledge at least).

i've been writing for a long time and i don't want to stop but i have some stuff i have to do so i'll cut it short here. i guess this is the first "proper" blog post, lol. i'm very happy with it. hoping to write more posts like this in the future as they're very relaxing to do. i love getting my brain like this. i'll see you guys in the next post! toodles~

why a new blog?

that's a very good question, i don't know. ive been really bad at keeping up blogs and my last one (at least under ruby) kinda crashed as real life junk got in the way, but im more comfortable posting on blogspot under this name. it's very refreshing. looking back at the posts i made when i turned 18 and was 17 is so much fun, i was so excited for whatever i was into... but it's not that way anymore, at least it doesn't feel that way. i'm still using the same chromebook my brother gifted me 3 years ago and it's... still holding up really well, surprisingly. i feel strange coming back to a new blog under this name but ive recently came back online to this name so i might as well go back to my once beloved website; blogspot. im not trying to leave my old past behind but its really not a part of me or my creative output now, as much as it should be considered, at least. im still the same kid from 2022 that made the og blog, just have more responsibilities in my life now, which kinda sucks but its good to finally have an outlet to get all these feelings out. normally id write a bunch of junk here about the past 4 years but like, who cares? i dont. reminiscing is lame in retrospect. i guess my interests are the same, i want to be more open about everything i like as i was on the old blog but like, more? i recently got into manga a few months ago and i WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT!!! i love manga so much. the art, the stories they tell, the titles of manga, how they read right-to-left instead of the other way round, the publishing companies... every single aspect! i love it! i have a lot i wanna talk about regarding manga as its an interesting artform (i know it's just japanese comics but like, it's so different than what the states have so who cares). i really wanna get my hands on these viz media samplers they tend to give out at expos. they're essentially just little samplers of what manga viz has at the time. i really want all of them but i wanna get the fall 2025 because it includes a Junji Ito story, Tsumiki Ogami's Not-So-Ordinary Life (one of my favorites) and Frieren: Beyond Journey's End (currently reading this one, super amazing!). Here are some pictures of it!:

looks great! photos sourced from here

okay its time to wrap this post up, just wanted to write more about the blog. its 8 in the morning and i havent slept yet (a terrible sleep schedule still persists!). i'll catch y'all on the flipside, toodles.

new blog.... who am i?

hi! im vivian, im 21 and a writer / graphic designer with hopes to go professional with those two paths in the future. im a big fan of japanese media (mostly manga and movies) and k-pop. i also indulge in such hobbies as photography and messing with old software/hardware (mostly windows xp era stuff and sixth gen consoles)! im also super into godzilla, sony, and collecting physical media of my favorite things.

current interests: nirvanna the band the show, hololive, tetris, k-pop and manga

you can find me with the links here: https://sakuvalor.online/

under this picture of kaguya i will list my top 5 favorites of mostly anything i can think of!

top 5 music genres

hip-hop

drum n bass

vaporwave

punk

shibuya-kei

top 5 manga

Kaguya-Sama: Love Is War

Chainsaw Man

Welcome To The N.H.K.

Bloom Into You

Yotsuba&!

top 5 rappers / rap groups

JPEGMAFIA

MF DOOM

Beastie Boys

Aesop Rock

Bladee

top 5 rappers / rap groups that has made the most influence on me

Sematary

Marjorie -W.C. Sinclair

Bladee

Death Grips

Lucy Bedroque

top 5 bands

Blur

The Dismemberment Plan

Boris

The President Of The United States of America

Pavement

top 5 movies

Fallen Angels

Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas

Trainspotting

Clerks

Office Space

top 5 japanese movies

The Happiness of The Katakuris

Battle Royale

House

Audition

Kamikaze Girls

top 5 directors

Wong Kar-Wai

David Lynch

Takashi Miike

Edgar Wright

Kevin Smith

top 5 tv shows

Arrested Development

Twin Peaks

Nathan For You

Nirvanna The Band The Show

Daria

top 5 anime

Cowboy Bebop

The Tatami Galaxy

Paranoia Agent

Samurai Champloo

Ouran Host High School Club

top 5 k-pop groups

ILLIT

Red Velvet

Hearts2Hearts

NMIXX

LOONA

top 5 video games

Sonic Adventure 2

Yakuza Kiwami

Postal 2

Tony Hawk Pro Skater 1 + 2

Grand Theft Auto 5